Issues

I have issues.  When something bothers me, I shut down.

Five days before my marathon I got really sick... like, I might have chosen death if given the option.

I missed the Chicago Marathon

... the one I won a lottery entry into

... the one I trained for 19 weeks for

... the one I ran TWO 20 milers during training for

... the one I missed SO many weekends with my family for

... the one we were meeting friends at so we could run together

... the one I had plane tickets and a hotel booked for

Depression set in.  I was nauseous and really sad.

Then... a friend called me... "Do the Marine Corps Marathon in two weeks."

"No."

I didn't even want to think about it, let alone run under someone else's name.

No, not for 26.2 miles.  Ain't happening.

Then... another friend called me... "I have a friend in the MCM office.  He will get you in."

"Oh."

"Tara, you've trained for 5 months... you HAVE TO DO IT."

With much stress heavy on my soul, I did it.

But I stopped blogging because I just didn't want to write about it.

I still felt like I missed something.

I'm over it now.

The marathon was hard, but so worth it.  I finished in 4:28:20 and was very happy.

I will blog about it soon.

I miss blogging about my favorite things.

I will start again...